How about, NO.

It is just one day in my life, and I feel so sad, about everything I had saied, and it had hurt some one.

I'm so sorry for jugging others, even when in same time wrong one is me, so sorry for being bad friend and

daughter. So sorry for don't being  the same person. So sorry for my lies and my sins. So sorry for not

helping others. I hate to say, but the time to tell the truth is now. I am nothing, never ever had been

and probably never will. I never had been nice, allways had been bitched, hated and jugged. But that

never had been my aim to do. I just want to be something. And I know telling sorry is same as going

to toilet for some of you guys. But people make mistakes and here I had made it, and I'm realy sorry

about it. If even you would know how much it hurts and how much I'm sorry.

Hey everyone,

I'm  here to write about something what I had worried for while. If one of you who are reading this Journal Post waste 20 minutes to read through megazine or while you are eating and drinking morning coffee is watching morning news you will know what I am talking about.

Today on morning I was realy sleepy  and  news were going on as allways, so while I was eating I heared again something what made me pissed off and angry. As you may know A nonprofit nuclear nonproliferation group is discounting news reports that North Korea might be reprocessing spent nuclear fuel at a plutonium separation plant. And it realy bother me, you would ask me:"Why? It's not even your bussines, they are not talking about you!" Well, Excuse me, but YES it does. Now you probably would ask : "In witch way than, missy?". Well I don't know how about you, but for me in every way. It's so hard to look at everything whats happening now. But for sure it is WAR. All the "Flu viruses", "Bombards", "Nuclear weapons",they all show whats happening NOW. It is same as with WW1 and WW2, and we all know how it ended, do you need to remind? Well why not! Dead Bodys, who probably were some ones child, dad, gradpa brother or cousin. Rats every where big as cat's, blood and smell. Deadly shelling sound and trench foot. AND FOR WHAT? For Land, who we even didn't get, for Power who was weak and still is, for fame, there is no fame but just hate.Thousands  of people just died, for lies and hate. And now it is allready WW3, you may say:"I don't see anything, I don't feel nothing and all what you say is bullshit." Yes, maybe, but than again explaine me, why all this is  happening? As my good friend, who is Geography teacher told me than all what you see and hear and what bothers you such as this one accident about nuclear weapons, is civil war, it just under our brains, we think than all this is over, but NO it just started.

All what we care is: "Ouh, do I look good", "These shoes are so great", "Ouh my, look at those snake fur bags", wake up, we are dieing, we are killing and we are destroying. And in days end, all what we could say was, how terrible is China  doing all those DIRTY companies. But They just need money, as we all need, and we cannot do nothing about it, cuz we are human race and we fuck our lifes and world up. Cuz nothing just cannot happen. Well FUCK YOU AND FUCK EVERYTHING WHAT YOU THINK,CUZ YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT YOU HAVE GOT. Someone who made the univers, dunno who, maybe God  or whatever you believe in had made it and you cannot denite it. And as he made it he can take it back, and than I want to see how will you die, as jerk who cared about him self or as human who lived and helped as he could. Well? it is all in your hands, what the hell are you waiting?

You maybe think now:"Well no one else is doing something, why should I do it". Firsly there is thousands of bands, singers, people who are, such as the same Micheal Jackson, he made the song "They don't care about us", he told what he think, and how we can help it and than it will never be to late. Than camed Gun's n Roses with song "Civil War" and in lyrics there is words such as "We don't need no Civil War", agree and they get in point they told they don't need it, and no one else wants it. Then in this year in "Britain got talant" were a girl dancers somewhere on 36 or pluss or minuss, but lots of young girls, and they dance they draw on their faces and they showed what they feel. And now it is your turn, recycle, go to school or drive with public transport or go with bicecycle. Stop buying all these expensive cosmethics or fur, live without fakeness, be real. And help and make disgussions and maybe people will hear you.

I camed with message and I hope you hear it.

thats all what I wanted to say and I hope you will have something to say to me.

  Hello Yello,

Even I'm feeling sad right now, and I will not smile for while, I hope than this blog will show how much and what I had done in these two days. .

Starting with yesterday, I was in one of the coolest night-clubs ever "Asylum", what is Indie, Rock, Metal club, what was just for me, I was rocking with my bestie Olivia all around. From start I though it will be dissaster, but starting from middle and till end I was so on the note and moving, than even now my legs and my back is hurting. And I cannot wait next time when I will have free time, cuz I'm not gonna stay at home but I will shake my booty in "Asylum".

BIG KISS TO ASYLUM AND DJ.

And now come This Saturday, what was one day when I could have best experience and in same time I could die and say bye bye to world and to my adorable family friends and fans and my models, which is one of my best thing in my world and they know than I will always help them as much as I can, because I am here and I can do it. But now where am I, ouh yes experience! So I had never, as I say NEVER had came to help my dear mum in work, but today I though, why not. So My mum is working in "Landsure" and she is Landscaper, sounds silly but my mum just adores her work, because whole her live she had worked with flowers and gardens and thats more hers hobby. But personaly I hate gardening and flowers from my whole heart. But yes so today I was with her, and blody hell it is well hard job. I did colloring- you know whole running lines. And blowing grass away, sounds easy, isn't? and than when I started to do it, it was so hard, expecialy when you have to do running lines straight ahr hate it. That means I will never do it again and I will never want such a work, but it was good experience.

THENKIES MUM.

Ouh, after the work, we went back to my mums job office where we put whole things and than we went to my mums place where she puts usually her car and than we go dink tee or talk about some new gossip.Yes I am with my mum big friends but ok, so when she was putting her car in parking place and I had to help her to show way so she doesnt drive on some other car and than while I was showing I was in middle of my mums car and another car and my mum drive on me and by cars back she squeshed me to another car, thenks to God than there were going my friend and she told my mum what she is doing. but it was my own foult cuz I went to far so she couldn't see me.

THENKIES INESE FOR SAVING MY LIFE

And here comes the Last thing the huge Europe thing "Eurovision", what made my night realy sad, because I just loved United Kingdoms song, it was awsome and heart breaking, but here came Norway and took the first place what was terrible, the song isn't for me and they won only because the guy who sang was pretty handsome. Well I couldn't see what was so pretty about him. But this is life and I have to deal with it. but Heloo we were fifth and I still feel good about it.

YEEY UK ICH LIEBE DICH.

But, Huns I had told you all and I hope you will enjoy it and will see small part of my dayly life.

BYE LIEBIES.

Guna xxx

"I want it" says Sharlotte with angry face..

"I wish I would be famouse" says jake...

"I wish I would be tiny, and good in fotography" says Guna..

We wish so much things, we dream about them all the time. Like Example: When we sleep, wen we watch others who allready had done it, when we are alone walking or siting at home. It is like drug, you just can't finish wishing, and crying about how unlucky you are. Well.. All what I had just now saied is TRUE, and I am one of the people like this, but now I'm going to STOP it. I will do whatever I ever wanted to do, I will fight about it, and I'll fuck everyone who will go in my way, cuz I want to get my life and live it for real.

So my aims till next september is :

*lose weight

*Learn much better,

* get started with my music, * keep doing modeling,

*Starting with my disains, *Remake my web to next level,

* tell everything to people what I ever had wanted to say,

* Make my fotography much much better.

And if you ever had been in this situation, tell me how did you get trought to it, and if you are in this situation, than tell me what you want to change in ur life (:

And wish me luck, as I'm wishing you guys one.